God I hate the way I have been feeling lately. Lost and alone. All the time. I miss the days when I actually had friends who cared and wanted to be arounjd me. Who cared. yeah, that's what I miss. Having a friend to lean on, to laugh with, to share with. Now it's only myself. I don't understand. I only want to be normal. I feel like I can't be. I feel like I cannot be myself anymore. There are too many restrictions and obstacles in life and I feel like I've given up all hope. I'm just sad all the time. I never get a fulfilled feeling out of my life anymore. I feel unimportant and just useless. I am very lonely. I'm lost.